You would have been 77 years old today. Things would've been clearer for some, and the world has definitely changed for the worse. It still keeps going though and we have memories of you that make us smile on the odd occasion when we aren't busy worrying about the most insignificant problems. I am somewhat comforted in the belief that you are watching over us, as my mum is. Things can get lonely here, with everyone doing what they want to - like that's the new way to live. I know better, try to tell people who won't listen, not in their interest. Tougher for the ones here, than you guys. I paid a visit to my dad today and its as if he's living the best of he's journey now. He isn't stressing the dump shit, smile from cheek to cheek and grateful.. I would've never imagined him being grateful - my mum absolutely. She had a way as you know to light up my heart, hearts of many I know, but mine with ease. It levels me not to be able to talk to her about my problems, these minor issues that tend to drip though the earths crust along solid, unrelenting rock, and sink there way into the core of us. All of the worries in the world can't stop me to unwind these droplets. They are the burden of hoping for the better, waiting for a glowing smile that you thought would never come. I'm grateful my mother taught me how to love. How to give everything regardless of the cost. To share my faults and faith, the depth of one's heart seems timeless. My best wishes to you in heaven and hope that at least in your eyes, you are proud of me. Tristan is my rock now. He doesn't know it, I dare not show him it. We are close, cut from the same clothe he and I. I watch him and he can read my thoughts, knows what I am going to say before of word can be uttered. I watch he's mannerisms, the way he moves, his sense of justice, humour. I hope that its a blessing to have a dad like me in his life. I'm so proud of him, the path that he's taking. He's better than me, he loves unconditionally even though he says he doesn't. All of our family are making us proud, hard working, earning their own way, and aquiring their rewards along the way. Brooke and Megan are awesome, they are so smart. Working through lifes challenges I know their parents have been their support, well a little less now that they move forward with people they've chosen to be a part of their journey through life. Thanks Geoff, just needed some one to chat to. Happy 77th Birthday mate. Give everyone up there a hug.